As hinted at in my previous post, I did manage to squeeze some vacation into this summer, I am writing this post on some crummy hotel wifi (the first internet connection I had for 3 days) and I am already regretting checking my work email – apparently, I am on the road for pretty much all of July.
But for now, I am still out here in the comparative wilderness, managed to see 3 bears yesterday alone and had some amazing hikes. Life is good.
A little distance to EVE and online culture is cathartic and I began to wonder what place the game will have when I return. Both of my remaining regular readers may have noticed my gradual detachment, a couple of years ago, I was very active in the management of our little corporation and alliance, recruited tons of people and in general, had made EVE my center point for non-work relaxation. Real life circumstances changed and I struggled for a while to keep the same focus on EVE but it just didn’t work. I can’t pretend that I am very active in the game or that I have a massive desire to log in. Living in a wormhole and flying with friends doesn’t actually help. There is always the nagging guilt that I am not hauling fuel, exporting loot, recruiting and do all the things a wormhole corporation needs to get done. Social games bring social expectations and if you can’t or won’t live up to them, resentment slowly creeps in. Which does not help to motivate me to log in more, of course.
I know, my absence is temporary, EVE is one of the best games that I have ever played and the people I met have become true friends. I will return with more energy but for now, I am contemplating new avenues for me to explore in New Eden. For me, “Winning EVE” is not to rage quit and burn all my assets but to adapt, find an acceptable activity level that fits in the real life schedule and preference.
I am open to suggestions.